静默省思

近日不断抽空见见久违的朋友们。很开心看见大家都为着自己的目标奔驰。大家聊聊天，分享，互相鼓励。我都把大家的话听进去了，自己静默省思。

老甲说：很多事情要趁着年轻时把握机会去做。不要让梦想沉没。

小乙说：梦想不能当饭吃。做人要求脚踏实地，现实点。

两者间的复杂和冲突。
还是老甲的话比较符合我的心意。

阿丙说：别天真，成熟点！你只是还没见过社会。或许以后你认识了“负担”和“责任”你就知道什么叫做Get Real!

阿丙的话虽然有点讽刺，但不完全没道理。
心动摇了....
我还是选择前者，老甲的信念。
当然梦想是要成就，但也必须兼顾“责任”。
我明白。

大丁说：一年又快过去了。现在是时候好好计划明年了。

我的计划和信念依旧不变。
一步一步把梦想变成理想。
要耐心。


如果梦想只能安葬，我宁愿没有梦想。

我还在这里

今天，我又到了车站等待。就像每个旅行者一样，都在车站等待自己的巴士抵达。巴士到了就开始一个新的旅程到下一站去了。有些人有伴相陪，一起上路；有些是一个人独自上路的。我和其他的旅行者相论，得知今天又有一个旅行者的巴士抵达了。我们开心地挥别了他，祝福他一路顺风。或许哪一天我们又会在哪一站邂逅。我又嫉妒，即羡慕他。手里紧紧地握着我的自由护照；我还在等待我的巴士。我不晓得巴士什么时候抵达，会不会抵达？所以我打起十分的精神留意着，因为我不想错过。



P/s: R,代我问候中国啦！你终于"远走高飞"了:P ，祝福你！等着你满载而归的故事.

病了啦！

我讨厌吃药。好像慢慢的在把化学药物吞进肚子里。感觉自己好像未来的机械人一样，必须靠着化学药物生存。

简单的生存之道，怎么变得何等的复杂了。

p/s:好久没写了......都忙上班的,连朋友都好难见面了。大家可好吗？乘着生病闲着，写着玩。上个礼拜刚刚邂逅了21，进入22的那天很开心！好多好多惊喜！谢谢大家为我准备的,祝福的 :)

病好了明天又要上班了。

Ms. Director diary

Guess this will be my 1st and only diary of Miss director.
At least i have a chance to understand what is the feeling of being a director .

Pre-production,
A week before production- Relax....fooled around....

4 days before production- Weird feeling started to overwhelmed

The day before production- Stressed up. Lack of talent + search for location + paper works + bla bla bla.....we are called the 'last minute fans'.

First day of production,
Totally stressed. Afraid things didn't go smoothly, keep on reminding group mates, end up becoming the most nagging director in the world. Worst, rained.....a few outdoor shoots screwed up. Crisis management. Conclusion, everyone's tension state boost up to 110% .

Second day of production,
3.30am thunder storm rain. 1st thought, damned it! Woke up and keep praying for rain to stop. Waited until 6.15am, supposed to depart to location at 6.45am. Woke my project manager for crisis management. Delayed shooting time to 9.30am. Rained stopped...it's the perfect sunny morning :) . All shots are good. Re-shoot some shots screwed by the rain the day before. Everything goes smoothly. Conclusion, our state of tension decrease to 20%.

Third day,
All indoor shots. Most challenging shots of all the shots. Some disagreement.....feel reluctant. Meditate myself. We try to take everything easy, try to forget about tiredness and exhaustion. 4.30pm last shot and wrapped up the whole production. 1st thought, isit over?! State of tension drop to -0.1%. Lepak at producer's house + starts acting crazy. Director of photography belanja us the meal. Seems that everyone is so happy and relieved. Project manager passed me the 2 tapes of the whole production and keep reminding me that the tapes are with me...hmmm....haha.

I reflect myself that night. A lot of challenges and crisis management though, but i really am enjoying everything.

Currently, left with post-production. 1 more hour to go before i enter the editing suite with the tapes. Kind of exciting to see the result but worried as well.

Awaiting for the 'new-born-baby'.Countdown 6 days to presentation day.

Abviously random

Currently, cracking my head for another 5000 words for my report and exhausted to learn that I still have 2 shooting days to go through.

I need some brain juice and sugar rush for energy boost!

Life pace is getting faster and I m trying to catch up with it.

Two weeks away from internship...at least I still have a few days left to lepak and catch up with friends, do some shopping and a few movie marathon before turning myself into an O-W-L.
croo-croo

Confession of butterflies

Butterflies are pretty ..... but not when they are in your stomach!
It does not feel good when there are a dozen of them in your stomach. I never realize my stomach has such huge space to occupy a dozen of them.

I just have to confess that I have butterflies in my stomach before my presentation..... as in everytime and I hate it so much! I wonder I have been through thousands of presentation but these stupid butterflies still likes to attack me unnecessarily.
Sometimes these butterflies did their best to cramp my stomach.
Oh gosh....when can these butterflies just leave me alone.

Today
Ms. P: I have butterflies in my stomach!
Me: Me too!
Ms. P: My butterflies are turning into dinosaurs.

At it again

Getting back to real life isn't that bad after all. Maybe all this while I'm just tired and chose to escape.

Leaving my comfort zone is always a challenge for me. Need to readjust myself.

Having mixed feeling lately......Weird.

Found myself being an addict lately , but not on drugs nor alcohol. Just glued my eyes to Gossip Girls and CSI series.

Workloads and chores are awaiting to be done, but I have not touch one yet. Have been fooling around a lil' too much though. Will start soon... but dunnoe how soon :P

Calendar starts to load with dates and appointments.

Missing Louis badly. Here's my lil' Louis ..... as promised.

What ya' looking at?!!

I'm wondering .... will he miss me too?

Will be having some sort of "escape-vacation" during raya with my church's friend. Well....just a simply 3 days 2 nights trip. Hope I'll enjoy .... the fact is I'm quite reluctant to join them at first.



Well, this is me recently.

xoxo
Full-stop.